The simplest of things are sometimes the hardest to do

With BPD some days run smoothly.  I get a couple of days per week where things run as if I wasn't ill.  However, for the remaining days of the week I often find even the simplest of tasks near impossible.

Getting dressed, cleaning teeth, brushing hair, showering, eating.  All these things become very difficult to complete.  I find myself just sitting and "being".  Not doing anything, the TV's off, I'm not at my computer and the radio isn't on.  I'm just sat trapped in my own little bubble.  It's not a horrible bubble to be in, but it certainly isn't a nice one.

I find the easiest way to combat this situation is to draw up an activity schedule the night before.  Sometimes I'm caught off guard and don't think a schedule is necessary.  These days result in the above situation.  But if I've pre-planned the day, hour to hour, sometimes minute to minute, with normal daily activities of living I'm more likely to live a normal day.

I know it sounds silly.  For your average person looking after yourself is just natural.  People don't think about it.  But with BPD the smallest molehill becomes a mountain.  It's not laziness.  It's just finding yourself trapped in  the bubble, a bubble which can often be very difficult to pop.